February 2010
January 2010
I feel like sometimes I hold myself back because of my body. I should be able to love it. I should be able to dream my dreams & be happy. I miss my free spirit, my happiness, my comfortable form. January has seemed so long with each current event, but the rest of this year is for me. I will dream big & let go.
“With a touch of your words I saw the devil sneak between my fingers.”
– Versaemerge/ Whisper
I cannot imagine things getting any worse today. You can’t leave now, not like this. Sure everyone thinking my being sad had no significance made them feel better, but when I tell them the truth, it’s like they care all of a sudden. It happened like 20 times today… Am I really a joke to everyone? This is only the second week you’ve been gone, & now this. I’m just...
It’s been a long time since I had an intense dream like that. Maybe it was showing me what my life would have been like if no one were to separate. I wake up sad & still thinking about it, & I’m not so sure if I’ll ever get over this. None of the dream meanings make sense, but I do have my own beliefs. I just hope it’s not more wish fulfillment rather than harsh...